Dear Sammie, (the bravest and most courageous person I have ever met) Well, it’s been a year now and I/we miss you as much as ever. I just want to give you a big cuddle and tell you that everything is going to be ok... I think about you every single day and always will. It’s very hard to cope at times with you up there and me Jode and the Kids down here. Jake and Mills know that you are in heaven and we talk about you at times. They have been to see you and they love you as much as we all do. They will never forget that you are their Auntie. We have two lovely pictures of you in the living room, one on the wall and one on the side table and we also have your calendar that Steve bought for us in the Kitchen. I don’t know why I am telling you all this because I know that you are still with us and looking down on us and I know that you are doing fine because Tamsin Ruffell gave us the message that you gave to her. I never realised how much you loved me Sam as your brother I really didn’t and I just really wish that I could have done you more proud but I just thought that I was a bit of a nuisance, shows how ignorant I am I guess. You can be proud of me though sis I will make sure that you can. I could go on and on and on talking to you Sammie but I wont I will just take each day as it comes getting up and saying good morning to you as I do and as I have always have done and just talk to you as and when I need to and you feel free to come and talk to me whenever you want to, maybe come and visit me in my dreams I don’t know I will leave it up to you. Right I’m going to go now (going to give Gal Steve’s a thrashing at golf), I love you Sis you are a true inspiration to us all. You are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. Your loving Brother Si xxxx