Hi hun Just thought I would say hi and to remind you im thinking of you as always. The kids were talking about you the other day, Jake was looking at your picture and you have that diamond on your tooth. He said " Mum why has sam got a hole in her tooth?!" I explained to him what it was! Typical child comment! He's right though, from a distance it does look like a hole! I know it would have made you laugh! It's still so hard not having you here with us, seeing the boys grow up and doing all the stuff you should be here doing. Im so glad they have so many lovely memories and photos they can look back on. It's funny but you would think it gets easier, but it doesn't sam, the longer you don't see someone, the more you miss them. It's so hard to deal with because I know we will never see you again, but don't feel like your gone, so it only makes me want to see you more if you know what I mean? Im still waiting for you to walk through the door, and when it hits me that that will never happen its like excepting your gone, im not prepared to do that, I like to believe we will see you again. (im not crazy i promise!) Jake went round his best friends house for the first time on tuesday and when his mum dropped Jake off, Si said he recognised her. When I asked her today it turns out she and her husband owned the Bull and you was her barmaid!! Your mum said how much you got in with them both, I have given her this website so im sure she will visit and leave a thought. Also her mum cared for you in the Elizabeth laury ward which got me chocked up, because they did take excellent care of you and we will all be eternally grateful for that. I know how much that ward meant to you aswell. Si is doing ok, he still hasn't been able to come on here but you know he is always thinking of you. Please come and visit if you can I dont mind if you break anything in here or blow the lights!! It's funny because Jakes TV didn't work the other day and fixed itself, still dont know why, then the following day Millers done exactly the same thing! Me and Si were baffled so we blamed you!!! I hope it was but can you do ours next time, because I cant be doing with their winging!!! Anyway hun you are always part of everything we do so you will always be with us and never far from our thoughts Miss you today, everyday always hun and will wait for a sign from you. Lots of love and hugs Jodie Si Jake and Miller xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx